After the Dark Night, Comes the Light
I am a Creative Soul who is inspired by life each day.
As we are all having this “human experience as a spiritual being’ it is important for me to remind you that we are all in this together. That you are not alone and we must reach out to one another for support, love and care.
This ride of life can be so challenging at times, so we must look to one another. Yes we must know ourselves more and more each day, to learn to depend on self at times, but we are also in a time of unity, community and connection. We are returning to an Age of Compassion.
The Age of Aquarius.
My artistic canvas of life includes so many titles of who I am. Intuitive, healer, channeller, psychic, galactic starseed, producer, speaker, singer, dancer, writer, and so many more, but these are just aspects we all have that create our fullness.
I have shared a little about my story below, but you can find me on socials where I find so much fun to play.
My intention is to share hope with you.
So I hope you find some peace in my words, some solace in my story and some comfort in your heart.
I truly love humanity and know we are on the path to love.
Hope is the key. Joy is the way. Love is the answer.
May you be well upon your journey.
I love you.
Angie xx
I always felt different growing up.
Feeling peoples feels, knowing what they were thinking, locating the tension in a room, knowing a persons intentions, it was just part of who I was and what I did, I did not know how to be any other way, other than open and reading all things around me. Now, we may call it empathic, neurodivergent, psychic, but whatever label it is given, energy was what I was reading, and all the things I just ‘knew’, were all part of who I was, and what I needed to know for this particular life.
My first out of body experience was at about two years of age when I was in a car accident with my mum and I was rushed to hospital. All I remember was floating a few feet away from my limp body, which was hooked up to all these machines, whilst my dad was sat a few steps back looking at me in distress. I remember the feeling I held was one of peace, calm and knowingness. That I was still alive but not in my body that lay rested in the little cubicle bed.
But it was in my late twenties, that my conscious spiritual journey began when diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Disease, a type of cancer. This initiated my seeking soul to research with a fervor a way to heal myself. There was something inside me that knew we could all tap into our own healing and energy to help us. Holistic healing, health, energetic life, positive thinking and the every lasting question, “Why am I even here?” were just a few of the subjects I broached at the time.
Over the following two decades I opened my life up to the possibility of all things which led me to tap back into my intuitive and psychic abilities, channeling, and energetic healing.
My thirst to know more came with the constant connection to my spiritual guides. This allowed me delve into automatic writing and downloads of information that I felt a calling to share. It was imperative for me to just get the information out of my system, as it felt I had to constantly keep energy flowing through me ready for the new. If I did not write or release this information, it felt as if I was clogged and my body and brain felt like it was in some type of electrical flooding, so I created a blog and Youtube channel to help me with this.
I began to share more of my gifts with the world and commenced my Intuitive Healing Sessions which combined the power of energetic healing on the entire being, together with spiritual guidance and messages that came through for the client at that time, where there was always a focus on the physical being and ways they could help themselves.
I also delved into platform work, which was to stand in front of groups and give messages to the individuals who attended, a bit like John Edwards, but working with the energetic realms of light, not just the deceased. This work was my favorite, but also the most taxing, leaving me exhausted for days, but I just loved working within these high dimensional frequencies, and I continued to learn and grow.
My research and knowledge was expanding as I delved into more eon physical health and wellness, mind power, brain plasticity, cellular reconstruction, DNA transcription, light transduction, sound and frequency healing, was part of what I was doing at the time. This was also a time of immense physical change within my body, that some of us are calling Ascension. The light quotient in my body was shifting to a higher frequency that I also documented. It has always been important to share my experience for others as to remind those around me that they were not alone. There were few on this journey at the time, but I knew it was to come for all.
The energy world had become my teacher. I lived in synchronicity, with flow and alignment, and everything was magical.
This was my time to seek, grow, learn, expand and share which would prove to be an education that I would need to see me through the next decade of my life.
It was in 2015, my early forties, that an unravelling was beginning.
The loss of both parents, several friends, my niece, another cancerous diagnosis, a huge financial loss and perimenopause knocking at my door, within the space of three years, a spiral began, and a debilitating depression and anxiety, a deep grief and sadness took hold. I had no choice but to take a side step away from all things spiritual to dedicate her time to more healing.
This healing was to be with the emotional body, a place I had not yet delved into, which took me into a depth I had not yet visited in this life. And for two years I was lost into a darkness, the deepest of shadows of life, that I had no idea how to navigate.
I called it my Dark Night of the Soul. I know such a cliche phrase, but it was the truth. I cannot describe it in any other was for it was exactly how I felt.
I felt as if I had lost everything. I had lost all of me and I did not know where or how to find her.
My soul felt as if she was floating in an abyss of complete darkness. And my faith, it had disappeared. And I was afraid.
All the things I had learnt, everything I had known, it all felt lost. Nothing made sense. I had could find nothing to hold onto. I had fallen into a spiral of nothingness and I had not idea how to get out.
It was a place where nothing existed but a very very very slight glimmer of hope that came in one day as I was sitting on my bed contemplating an after life. I was done with this human life and wanted out.
But this glimmer of hope came in as a gentle voice in my head telling me, I did not want to leave. I had to stay. I held onto that glimmer for dear life.
The following weeks and days that hope was then found in people who were in my world, some of that hope was found in my fur baby D’Artagnan, very little of it found in my heart. And it was tough. I had lost faith in myself. I lost faith in all I had known. I had lost faith in God. And I felt so very alone.
It has taken me years to slowly rebuild my faith again. In me, in God and in life. But as always we can look back and see why we needed to go through what we did. I know these trials were to help me create new patterns, new behaviors, meet new people and become super Ange. I know that I went through this to show others they too can move past it, into a new, and that this deep night was to show me that we all are capable of rising from the shadows.
I still have shaky days, and it can take me time to find balance but I acknowledge that with this new found vulnerability, heart centered love and compassion for myself, I am here to share messages of hope.
Hope is the key we need to hold onto. It is part of getting us through the difficult times that visit us. For life can and will throw us shit balls, but as we find our resilience within, a community we can feel supported with, and learn new ways to help ourselves, we truly can work through anything.
If we remember we are learning each day, and that we are all doing our best at every moment. And to accept where we are, knowing we have a power within that we can tap into that will help us through.
Shit gets hard in life, and I have to keep it real, for I know it is definitely not always sunshine and lollipops. I also know we can definitely get through anything once we know ourselves deeply, open up to the support of one another, hold a faith in God and keep a hope in our heart. All things are possible.
I love you, and remember you got this life!
Angelina is currently editing her first book for publishing, and dedicating her time to speaking. As a natural leader Angelina is dedicated to leading our next generations into our future with integrity, guiding with wisdom and compassion as we seed the light of love entering into our new earth together.