It has been shown to me time again, over the last few weeks that we must learn to become comfortable with death.

At present, I am in the middle of a transition, which involves death.  It is the death of a dear loved one, a death that is pending, a death that I cannot control.

It evokes some anxiety, some panic, and dread, only because I have known death intimately, through my own experience faced with my own mortality with cancer over 20 years ago, but also the death of loved ones in the past few years.  Deaths that I was not ready for, nor did I know how to navigate.

Are we ever really ready for death?  Can we embrace it with an new hope?

This post is not to instill any fear, but an awareness.

An awareness to know everything that arrives at our doorstep is to teach us.  And as much as this piece of news sounds shitty, especially if you are in the midst of some deep shifts, I am here to encourage you that you will get through it all, and it is part of why we are here.

My words may not make your pain go away, or ease what you are experiencing and feel like an echo of empty promises, but I want to say that I know your pain, and I know you are feeling so deeply, beautiful human.  I know you are hurting, and I love you, and that we have your back.

If you can get through each day, gently, with each step, you will eventually see a light, I promise.

For I have been where you are.

The darkness, the confusion, the disconnection.

I understand you, but I cannot walk it for you.

Reach out to those you feel safe around.

Talk to them, sit with them, and allow human kindness to envelope you when you need it.  For this is also why we are here, to be with one another, to share our loving kindness, our hearts, and our healing powers of life.

I am also being shown that there is a deep collective healing of a  ‘survivors guilt’.

A great number of people are healing a ‘guilt’ that has been passed on through generations through war, genocide and sickness that enveloped their worlds at some point.  We carry for others what they could not heal in their time.  So the time is now. And you are the one.

Remember what we do for self, we do for the collective.

It is just part of the process.

So if some of what you may be feeling is a guilt, a shame or a confusion as to why it is you still here, and those you love are not, please know you are meant to be here, that life needs you, and humanity needs your life upon this planet. And each of those who have departed, have done so with a knowing spirit that this was their time.

We are in the midst of one of the greatest transformations of humankind ever to be witnessed.  And it is you and I who are witnessing this great beginning with deep endings.

I hope you know how loved you are.

That we are all infinite.

Death can feel so final.  But it is a transition to pure love.

It is just the shedding of our bodies.

It is a letting go of an old life and entering into a new one.

I am not yet a master of letting human love leave my side, but I am growing this acceptance.

As shall you.

And we shall all know death as a celebration of what was.

So yes, eventually we shall become to know death and be comfortable with her.

Tears, sadness, and emotion shall still be shared, for this is part of why we are here, but it is a new energy that is waiting to surround death. To embrace all that exists here, with a loving warm embrace to trust in our lives, trust in our deaths, trust in the process we call the cycle of life.

I love you and am always with you.

May you go in peace.

Angie x

October 2021